Life update: Month of August
August was a weird month for me. I was mentally preparing to send my baby boy off to kindergarten later in the month. I knew it was a good thing and a positive thing for him to have a routine and schedule (which he does better with). I started a job (full time) which was scary and exciting all at the same time. A little back tracking… Last, May my work was purchased by a new owner and my position of AM preschool teacher was eliminated until they could figure out what was to come for the facility. I miss my old job… the hours were perfect for someone like me who still wants to be present in the home and for the kids even if it means they are both now in school full time. Long story short, two weeks of my new job was spent preparing the room, planning, paperwork, classes and cleaning. Week 3 was the start of school. Unfortunately, I had come to realize that this job was not like anything I have ever had in years passed. Mind you, I have been doing this for 15 years plus. Again, a little back tracking… all the while putting in 40 hours a week… while the kids were still at home with my husband… because summer vacation. He works from home so full attention was not always given to what they were up to…. I would come home to clingy children not used to me being gone so much and an outlet that almost burnt the house down… We are still unsure what happened, but something was stuck in it…. LOL I can laugh now that nothing happened, and it is fixed. My dog was diagnosed with chronic pancreatitis one week on a Monday during all of this and was being put down the following week, exactly 1 week later. I was missing a few days and hours for a new job for appointments that were prescheduled long before starting, thrown for a loop with my dogs’ health and was trying to find a new happy medium of being away from home, cleaning my home and coming home to cook the same kinds of dinners I have always provided. I do not want to go fully into the details of what was happening at work that made me know this was very unfitting for me, but I will say that me being away from my family and home base was not worth the hours put in and dealing with the daily things I had to deal with for the pay I was making. Expectations were high and the benefits and my happiness were low. What I can say now that I can take a breather is that you will find your happiness, you control your life and your future and no one’s happiness is as important as yours and your families. I finally feel in control again and for that I am grateful.